Yesterday, I feel so unproductive. I slept for like three hours in the afternoon and when I woke up, I realized that there are so many things I can do besides sleeping. So I decided to watch movies. I'm a fan of tear jerker films which can make me cry liters of tears. I don't know but these types of movies makes me feel good. Anyway, I watched The Time Traveler's Wife and I Give My First Love to You (a Jap film which was suggested to me by my blockmate, Harienne). Both films satisfied my 'crying' cravings (if there's such a thing). But I really felt the emotions coming out of the films. Rachel McAdams who's part of The Time Traveler's Wife is such a pro with chick flicks! She acts effortlessly and beautifully. I really love her.
After I had that mini-movie marathon, I suddenly realized that both films have the same theme which is about time. Oh, time. It makes me think again about things that saddens me these days. My time here in US is about to end in a month and it makes me paranoid what will happen if kuya and I return to the Philippines. We'll be independent. I can feel that it will be lonely than ever. I can't imagine myself going home, with nobody to talk to; with nobody to share thoughts; with nobody to cuddle with. I'll be missing mommy, daddy and my little sister :( And right now, I feel sad. Really sad imagining things. :( Mommy was asking us if we want to stay here for another three or four months. I refused because I want to graduate on time.
I don't know why time runs fast when we enjoy the most. I don't want summer to end yet. But since I can't control time, I'll just make the most of the time that I have here. Anyway, we'll be back here maybe next summer. :(
Yesterday, I feel so unproductive. I slept for like three hours in the afternoon and when I woke up, I realized that there are so many things I can do besides sleeping. So I decided to watch movies. I'm a fan of tear jerker films which can make me cry liters of tears. I don't know but these types of movies makes me feel good. Anyway, I watched The Time Traveler's Wife and I Give My First Love to You (a Jap film which was suggested to me by my blockmate, Harienne). Both films satisfied my 'crying' cravings (if there's such a thing). But I really felt the emotions coming out of the films. Rachel McAdams who's part of The Time Traveler's Wife is such a pro with chick flicks! She acts effortlessly and beautifully. I really love her.
After I had that mini-movie marathon, I suddenly realized that both films have the same theme which is about time. Oh, time. It makes me think again about things that saddens me these days. My time here in US is about to end in a month and it makes me paranoid what will happen if kuya and I return to the Philippines. We'll be independent. I can feel that it will be lonely than ever. I can't imagine myself going home, with nobody to talk to; with nobody to share thoughts; with nobody to cuddle with. I'll be missing mommy, daddy and my little sister :( And right now, I feel sad. Really sad imagining things. :( Mommy was asking us if we want to stay here for another three or four months. I refused because I want to graduate on time.
I don't know why time runs fast when we enjoy the most. I don't want summer to end yet. But since I can't control time, I'll just make the most of the time that I have here. Anyway, we'll be back here maybe next summer. :(
“For once, for once, for once, I get the feeling that I'm right where I belong .”
- Fun.
This blog was created August of 2008. Putting up an account here wasn't really on my plans. It's just that I was so crazy about Chris Tiu before and he runs a blog so I thought of creating my own as well. Years have passed, and I have grown yet I still keep my personal stuff here. Yes, things may change but one thing's for sure -- I will continue running this blog as long as I can.