I don’t know how to begin with this love letter. Okay. Let me say I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH first. Hihi. Anyway, I`ve got this story to tell. Last Saturday, I had the best worst day of my life. It was the date of your book signing in NBS Trinoma and I have planned a week prior to that date that I would really go. But a lot of things happened that week which made me doubt if I would really be able to go. “MAYBE NOT.” became one of the choices. During that Friday night, I was sure that I would come. I`ve got everything I need to make it happen. I had planned everything. Unfortunately, things didn’t fall into place the following day. I woke up at about 4 am that Saturday, bothered by a call my mom picked up. My lolo died. My lolo died. MY LOLO DIED. On that very moment, I felt that heavy feeling again but this time, with some peace in my heart. I know he’s now free from pain and suffering. I know he`s safe. I didn’t expect that I would still cry. Despite being prepared that that event would happen, it still hurts to know that some person close to you has to go. So that event made it hard for me to go to your book signing event. I`ve been wanting to see you for like years. Actually, I`ve had some plans before to go to events that you`re part of but sadly, it doesn`t happen. When I was about to leave for Trinoma, my mom changed her mind. She wouldn`t allow me to go. She said we still have to make plans for our trip to Isabela to attend our lolo’s wake and burial. I said that if they wanted to leave that Saturday already then it`s ok for me. I and my brother can come the other day anyway. She didn`t agree. So we had some misunderstanding before I left but in the end she allowed me. My eyes were puffy as I made my way to QC. I only got to realize that when I looked on the mirror in Trinoma. I saw that I wasn`t totally well neither excited to see you cause it’s been hurting me to make decisions; to leave without fixing my issues with my mom; to handle the situation about lolo. Sadness rules in my system that time despite the fact that I would be seeing you. I know that sucks. But I have to go. I need to go.
So after I bought Bakit Hindi ka Crush ng Crush Mo?, I hurriedly joined the long, long, looooong line which surrounded the outer portion of the National Bookstore. I was number 386. It was energy-draining to line up for almost two hours. But still, it was worth the wait. So while waiting for my book to be signed, I listened to your friends, Tado and Stanley Chi as they do contests. For the first time that day, I laughed. When it was our ‘group’s’ turn (I was the 386th in line), I stared at you the whole time. I know how tired you were that moment and that there`s still a lot of books to be signed. I understood that some of us wouldn’t have the chance to have a photo op with you. But you know, I`ve got some stolen pictures of you while you`re signing my book. And I guess, that’s one of the most precious 5 seconds in my life. 5 seconds that means forever to me. As I went out of the bookstore, I remembered the ‘moments’ I had with you in the past. You greeted me on my 16th birthday on air when BrewRATS was still alive. You answered my question which I sent to your Tumblr account. You gave me and all the other UPCAT takers pieces of advice on how to pass the said test. You even corrected my grammar. You said that I should have used advice instead of advices since its actually in plural form already. And you`ve had also answered my Formspring questions.
You never fail to feed my stomach with butterflies. I hope you can feed it more. Hihibrr. By the way, I`ve already finished reading the book. I enjoyed reading it again. Again, since I have already read some of those on your Formspring. I also enjoyed looking at your seductive and funny photos. To end this letter, let me say it again – I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH SIR RAMON VICTOR BAUTISTA. ♥
I don’t know how to begin with this love letter. Okay. Let me say I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH first. Hihi. Anyway, I`ve got this story to tell. Last Saturday, I had the best worst day of my life. It was the date of your book signing in NBS Trinoma and I have planned a week prior to that date that I would really go. But a lot of things happened that week which made me doubt if I would really be able to go. “MAYBE NOT.” became one of the choices. During that Friday night, I was sure that I would come. I`ve got everything I need to make it happen. I had planned everything. Unfortunately, things didn’t fall into place the following day. I woke up at about 4 am that Saturday, bothered by a call my mom picked up. My lolo died. My lolo died. MY LOLO DIED. On that very moment, I felt that heavy feeling again but this time, with some peace in my heart. I know he’s now free from pain and suffering. I know he`s safe. I didn’t expect that I would still cry. Despite being prepared that that event would happen, it still hurts to know that some person close to you has to go. So that event made it hard for me to go to your book signing event. I`ve been wanting to see you for like years. Actually, I`ve had some plans before to go to events that you`re part of but sadly, it doesn`t happen. When I was about to leave for Trinoma, my mom changed her mind. She wouldn`t allow me to go. She said we still have to make plans for our trip to Isabela to attend our lolo’s wake and burial. I said that if they wanted to leave that Saturday already then it`s ok for me. I and my brother can come the other day anyway. She didn`t agree. So we had some misunderstanding before I left but in the end she allowed me. My eyes were puffy as I made my way to QC. I only got to realize that when I looked on the mirror in Trinoma. I saw that I wasn`t totally well neither excited to see you cause it’s been hurting me to make decisions; to leave without fixing my issues with my mom; to handle the situation about lolo. Sadness rules in my system that time despite the fact that I would be seeing you. I know that sucks. But I have to go. I need to go.
So after I bought Bakit Hindi ka Crush ng Crush Mo?, I hurriedly joined the long, long, looooong line which surrounded the outer portion of the National Bookstore. I was number 386. It was energy-draining to line up for almost two hours. But still, it was worth the wait. So while waiting for my book to be signed, I listened to your friends, Tado and Stanley Chi as they do contests. For the first time that day, I laughed. When it was our ‘group’s’ turn (I was the 386th in line), I stared at you the whole time. I know how tired you were that moment and that there`s still a lot of books to be signed. I understood that some of us wouldn’t have the chance to have a photo op with you. But you know, I`ve got some stolen pictures of you while you`re signing my book. And I guess, that’s one of the most precious 5 seconds in my life. 5 seconds that means forever to me. As I went out of the bookstore, I remembered the ‘moments’ I had with you in the past. You greeted me on my 16th birthday on air when BrewRATS was still alive. You answered my question which I sent to your Tumblr account. You gave me and all the other UPCAT takers pieces of advice on how to pass the said test. You even corrected my grammar. You said that I should have used advice instead of advices since its actually in plural form already. And you`ve had also answered my Formspring questions.
You never fail to feed my stomach with butterflies. I hope you can feed it more. Hihibrr. By the way, I`ve already finished reading the book. I enjoyed reading it again. Again, since I have already read some of those on your Formspring. I also enjoyed looking at your seductive and funny photos. To end this letter, let me say it again – I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH SIR RAMON VICTOR BAUTISTA. ♥
“For once, for once, for once, I get the feeling that I'm right where I belong .”
- Fun.
This blog was created August of 2008. Putting up an account here wasn't really on my plans. It's just that I was so crazy about Chris Tiu before and he runs a blog so I thought of creating my own as well. Years have passed, and I have grown yet I still keep my personal stuff here. Yes, things may change but one thing's for sure -- I will continue running this blog as long as I can.
