If you have been reading my previous tweets, well I assume that you know that I am currently in state of devastation right now. I don't feel okay. I feel upset and disappointed. And I do not know what brought me here. I was so happy weeks ago but things drastically change to the point that I am incapable of putting things back in place. Well, at least I am trying to be strong and hopeful that things will be back to normal.
I have a serious problem on writing and explaining things right now and I am not even kidding. I don't feel enthusiastic anymore about doing essays. I even have some terrible problems with school works. Something IS wrong with me. Maybe I've been looking too far, missing the whole point why I am here in the first place. Academic stuff is seriously putting me in pain. I need to write stuff, explain stuff but I can't seem to find the right and appropriate words. It is more than a writer's block. Extreme writer's block, I suppose.
Just a few days ago, we had an assignment. We were tasked to write something about the concept of film on different aspects. Six items, 200 words each. I found it hard to accomplish. It took me forever to finish it. I literally cried while I was doing it. And then, I also received an e-mail from my World Literature professor. Our group got a grade of 3 in one of our papers. I know that was my fault because I was the one who edited the whole paper and I should have summarized that poem per stanza. But I didn't. So I really felt ashamed that I made my group down.
I feel really useless these past days. I cry, I talk to myself. I am trying to patch things up with myself. I am trying. And I hope it works.
I'll just catch up with all the things I've missed. I need to bounce back and regain that lost enthusiasm of mine.
If you have been reading my previous tweets, well I assume that you know that I am currently in state of devastation right now. I don't feel okay. I feel upset and disappointed. And I do not know what brought me here. I was so happy weeks ago but things drastically change to the point that I am incapable of putting things back in place. Well, at least I am trying to be strong and hopeful that things will be back to normal.
I have a serious problem on writing and explaining things right now and I am not even kidding. I don't feel enthusiastic anymore about doing essays. I even have some terrible problems with school works. Something IS wrong with me. Maybe I've been looking too far, missing the whole point why I am here in the first place. Academic stuff is seriously putting me in pain. I need to write stuff, explain stuff but I can't seem to find the right and appropriate words. It is more than a writer's block. Extreme writer's block, I suppose.
Just a few days ago, we had an assignment. We were tasked to write something about the concept of film on different aspects. Six items, 200 words each. I found it hard to accomplish. It took me forever to finish it. I literally cried while I was doing it. And then, I also received an e-mail from my World Literature professor. Our group got a grade of 3 in one of our papers. I know that was my fault because I was the one who edited the whole paper and I should have summarized that poem per stanza. But I didn't. So I really felt ashamed that I made my group down.
I feel really useless these past days. I cry, I talk to myself. I am trying to patch things up with myself. I am trying. And I hope it works.
I'll just catch up with all the things I've missed. I need to bounce back and regain that lost enthusiasm of mine.
“For once, for once, for once, I get the feeling that I'm right where I belong .”
- Fun.
This blog was created August of 2008. Putting up an account here wasn't really on my plans. It's just that I was so crazy about Chris Tiu before and he runs a blog so I thought of creating my own as well. Years have passed, and I have grown yet I still keep my personal stuff here. Yes, things may change but one thing's for sure -- I will continue running this blog as long as I can.
