I did my best but I guess my best wasnt`t good enough and it hurts me more than you know so much more than it show.
written on Wednesday, January 5, 2011 @ 6:02 PM ✈
January 1 was the exact date when I found out that UPCAT results would be released on the 3rd of January (thanks to Sarah!). I felt really nervous. My mom and I prayed hard. I want to pass UPCAT badly. Everybody knows how I wish to be a UP Diliman student. On the second day of the new year, I can feel my heart beats abnormally. I felt so cold (which I never experienced in my sixteen years of existence) I wasn`t able to sleep well that night. I wake up in between sleep. So to make myself comfortable, I opened the computer and checked the site. Unfortunately, they haven`t posted it yet. The morning of January 3, I woke up early to check the site again but still, there were no results yet. I went to school with a heavy feeling. Classes were dismissed early due to faculty meeting. When I reached home, I hurriedly opened the computer again and I got surprised and disappointed as well when they rescheduled the release of results. By 6 pm, I decided to regain my lost sleep that I didn`t have the chance to eat dinner. Then yesterday, when I opened the site at 4 am, the results were already out. I held my rosary tight and prayed that whatever the outcome may be, I must remain strong. I`m looking for the name range where my surname might be included. As I scroll down, I saw the name of my best friend, DE GUZMAN INA RIANA NIKITA ALBERTO on the 38th number. When I finally reached 'G', I looked for my surname but unluckily, only my ka-surnames or relatives who I`m not familiar with were there but not my name.I didn`t feel depressed after that because I`m ready for that possibility. Then afterward, I looked for my classmates name but nobody from our class passed! Haha! I also looked for the names of my friends and I saw more than 5. Congrats!
Well I think God has better plans for me. I would love to see His plans already! BTW, I`ll make sure to pass my PUPCET so I would have a university already. I`m now aiming to earn a 2.0 or 2.5 grade in my first year in college so I can have the chance to transfer to UP Diliman after I finished 33 units OR if ever my UPG would be okay, I`ll try if UP can accommodate me to any of their available slots. (Mine and Sarah`s plan! :P) I`m hoping to receive the letter by February. So I think this ends my UPCAT journey but never my UP dream. My UP dream continues. I`ll do everything to graduate BA Broadcast Communication from UP Diliman. That`s my goal. I swear from this day on. :)
PS. I think my brother felt that I`m sad so he edited this for me:
I did my best but I guess my best wasnt`t good enough and it hurts me more than you know so much more than it show.
written on Wednesday, January 5, 2011 @ 6:02 PM ✈
January 1 was the exact date when I found out that UPCAT results would be released on the 3rd of January (thanks to Sarah!). I felt really nervous. My mom and I prayed hard. I want to pass UPCAT badly. Everybody knows how I wish to be a UP Diliman student. On the second day of the new year, I can feel my heart beats abnormally. I felt so cold (which I never experienced in my sixteen years of existence) I wasn`t able to sleep well that night. I wake up in between sleep. So to make myself comfortable, I opened the computer and checked the site. Unfortunately, they haven`t posted it yet. The morning of January 3, I woke up early to check the site again but still, there were no results yet. I went to school with a heavy feeling. Classes were dismissed early due to faculty meeting. When I reached home, I hurriedly opened the computer again and I got surprised and disappointed as well when they rescheduled the release of results. By 6 pm, I decided to regain my lost sleep that I didn`t have the chance to eat dinner. Then yesterday, when I opened the site at 4 am, the results were already out. I held my rosary tight and prayed that whatever the outcome may be, I must remain strong. I`m looking for the name range where my surname might be included. As I scroll down, I saw the name of my best friend, DE GUZMAN INA RIANA NIKITA ALBERTO on the 38th number. When I finally reached 'G', I looked for my surname but unluckily, only my ka-surnames or relatives who I`m not familiar with were there but not my name.I didn`t feel depressed after that because I`m ready for that possibility. Then afterward, I looked for my classmates name but nobody from our class passed! Haha! I also looked for the names of my friends and I saw more than 5. Congrats!
Well I think God has better plans for me. I would love to see His plans already! BTW, I`ll make sure to pass my PUPCET so I would have a university already. I`m now aiming to earn a 2.0 or 2.5 grade in my first year in college so I can have the chance to transfer to UP Diliman after I finished 33 units OR if ever my UPG would be okay, I`ll try if UP can accommodate me to any of their available slots. (Mine and Sarah`s plan! :P) I`m hoping to receive the letter by February. So I think this ends my UPCAT journey but never my UP dream. My UP dream continues. I`ll do everything to graduate BA Broadcast Communication from UP Diliman. That`s my goal. I swear from this day on. :)
PS. I think my brother felt that I`m sad so he edited this for me:
“For once, for once, for once, I get the feeling that I'm right where I belong .”
- Fun.
This blog was created August of 2008. Putting up an account here wasn't really on my plans. It's just that I was so crazy about Chris Tiu before and he runs a blog so I thought of creating my own as well. Years have passed, and I have grown yet I still keep my personal stuff here. Yes, things may change but one thing's for sure -- I will continue running this blog as long as I can.
